Friday, August 29, 2014

Experiencing Mercy and Love

  Today was an unusual day.  Benson had the day off, so I took Siler down for school. Since both our little guys were feeling a little yucky - due to the lovely, early fall flowers blooming - and we were not going to therapy, I decided to do a little grocery shopping. Okay, big grocery shopping since we have a big family :0)
  Benson had gotten paid and given me some money to deposit.  I mentioned to him that I would use some for groceries.  He said that was fine and deposit the rest.  So here I had some money.  I should have put it in my wallet, but I put it in my pocket.  I know most of you are saying to yourself, "Oh no!"  for you already have guessed what I am about to share with you.  Yes, I did buy our large amount of groceries.  I felt good being able to walk around the store and getting our needs and some of our wants.  I went up to the front and paid for our groceries.
  This is where my story gets really sad.  I unloaded my groceries in the car.  When I went to get the rest of the money together to take to the bank, it was gone.  I checked my purse, pockets, the van - GONE.  Let me tell you that the feeling in my stomach was not good. I was going to have to call Benson and tell him that the money he had worked so hard for was in someone else's hands.  Someone that was in that store found my money and did not try to see who it belonged to.  Sick, sad, and crying my guts out!  He called to check on me, and I tried to tell him what happened, but I was crying so hard he could not understand me.  I finally pulled myself together, and I told him the awful truth.  
  His reaction was not at all what I expected.  He said, "Well, honey, there is nothing you can do about it now.  Just get finished up and come on home.  Be careful driving. Don't let your emotions cause an accident."  Even when I had lost the money he had worked so hard for, he showed me compassion and love.  Now that, my friends, is Mercy and Love.  I know that we are to show each other kindness, but I am a "short fuse" sometimes.  I just appreciated the fact that he was able to hug on me when he saw me.  I am so blessed to have the sweet, patient, understanding husband!
  I hope that I can take this lesson and first, remember to put money in my wallet!  I mean, it wasn't like he gave a me $5!  But I want to take away from this that 1 Corinthians 13 principle!  Especially in the verses 4 - 6 - "Charity suffereth long, and is kind;  charity envieth not;  charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up.  Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth."
  We all have our times where we act up.  I know that this experience was one where some would have yelled, had temper tantrums, and maybe even not speak to that person.  I am just glad that I know that my husband loves me more than money!  He told me before he had to go run errands that in the end I was what mattered.
  Of course I am crying!!  I hope those of you who have an experience where there was a mishap or a loss that you will show mercy.  Our Heavenly Father shows us SO much mercy, but it was so neat today to have experienced Jesus through my sweet Benson!   I love this song and it came to my mind when I was thinking about mercy!  Listen and be blessed!  

CeCe Winans: Mercy Said No - YouTube

Love and {{hugs}},

Friday, August 15, 2014

Robin Williams

  When I found out about Robin Williams' death, it immediately took me back to his movies and humor.  I was like alot of kids that watched "Mork and Mindy" when it came on tv.  I don't really remember it as much as I do his other movies.  I know as a teen I watched "Dead Poets Society."  That movie, while controversial, made me think about being a passionate teacher and enjoying being a teacher.
  "Dead Poets Society" was a movie I saw as a junior or senior in high school.  I look back and now can't remember all of the movie, so I am speaking mainly on the inspiration that I do remember from watching the movie.  Robin Williams' character was a teacher who went against the appropriate ways of teaching in the school that was in this movie.  I don't think his intentions were to encourage disobedience or being a rebel.  I think he was trying to inspire and show passion for teaching and for his students.  As a young teacher, I wanted to have my students stand on their desks and say "Captain!" I wanted to encourage them to have passion.  I wanted to have that passion myself.  As I type this, I have tears in my eyes in thinking about the years that I got to teach at Oconee Christian Academy.  Now don't get me wrong  I LOVE being a mom and taking care of our family.  But I have to say that a little part of me, when I think about teaching, misses that realm.  However, I also know that I have a passion for my family and have learned to tune in to that!
  Another thing that I remember from this movie that I won't ever forget is the "Barbaric yawp."  When we graduated from high school, several of us gathered around, threw up our caps, and let out a "Yawp!"  I remember doing that with so much joy.  I remember looking around at my classmates - ones that I had grown up with - letting out our "YAWP!"  What a fun memory!!
  The death of such a famous man has come and gone.  I think about the fact that he was so very funny but dealt with deep, personal depression.  Depression is a hard thing to deal with.  I am sad for this loss for so many, but I am mostly sad for his family.  He will be truly missed but remembered for making so many laugh. Prayers for his family and friends as they mourn his passing.

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Making Pancakes With a Twist :0)

I am making pancakes for lunch today.  I am trying this recipe, Good Old Fashioned Pancakes Recipe -  I will post on here later how they turned out.  I don't have my camera or a smart phone, so I can't put pictures on here.  Oh well - I guess you can look on the site address above and think that is what mine look like :) LOL!

Well, I am going to have to try that pancake recipe another time because I didn't have flour.  I only had cornmeal.  I tried a recipe on the back but had to tweak it because we had just run out of milk.  So this is what I ended up making --
2 cups of cornmeal mix
1 tsp. baking soda
1 tsp. salt
1 tbsp. oil
1 tbsp. vinegar
1 cup peach yogurt
2 cups of water

Now, mind you, I know this is not your typical pancake mix, but it worked given that I lacked 2 very important ingredients.  The children had mixed reviews - 2 like them and 2 didn't.  I licked them fine, and I actually think the batter would also work well for making corndogs somehow.  In any case, I will try to have ingredients next time and use this recipe.  That will be in another post, I suppose!

Happy Saturday :0)

My Stinkin', Rotten Attitude

  You ever have one of those days where you begin with a really rotten attitude?  Well, Friday was one for me.  Let me begin by briefly sharing that our transmission in our main vehicle is not 100%.  I can get around enough to get to grocery stores, drug stores, my in-laws to borrow their wonderful car that has the BEST ac, and of course church.  In any case today, I kind of - don't ask me how - but I forgot that my car will only go 40 and takes extra time to get down the mountain.  I also forgot that I was having to unload two babies, a purse, a therapy bag for Sully, and my larger-than-life diaper bag!  And, mind you, I had been functioning this way for almost 6 weeks, so it wasn't like an all of a sudden thing!  In any case this is how my morning was starting.  Plus, it was raining.
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  Now before you start thinking, "Wow!  This is one negative, very Eeyore-like person," I am not. It just so happens that I am the complete opposite.  I am probably one of those cup isn't half full but is overflowing.  That is what my mom says, anyway.  
  So, therapy - our really wonderful, miraculous therapy group is about 1 1/2 hours one way from home.  I drive through Walhalla, West Union, Seneca, Clemson, part of Liberty, Easely, and into Powdersville.  These places have tons of stop lights!  Now on any given day, I might be able to go through a few of these places without hitting any of the red lights.  But this day I was hitting ALL of them.  And I was getting behind people going five mph under the speed limit.  I was having a really stickin', rotten attitude!  My sister-in-law and her two children were with me, enduring my mouth!
  Why can I not get control of this tongue of mine!  It is my downfall for sure.  I sometimes - and by now, you know I am a "talker," - talk too much.  I put my foot in my mouth!  Oh me - I hate when I do that!  But Friday, I was fussing at these people I didn't know and hollering at the red lights.  I am sure my passengers thought I was a lunatic or "Road Rage Queen."  
  I thought about that when I was around my passengers later.  I apologized to them for my attitude - it was not good.  It was my own doing!  When I mess up, I don't own up to it.  I try to blame my issues on other people or things.  I begin my apologies with the same words - "Sorry, the kids," or "Sorry, the car.." - you know!  I must learn to take on some responsibility!  For me as I type this and think, my tongue is a symptom of a deeper problem.  I have a selfishness that I haven't dealt with.  I think it stems from wanting to hold onto what I used to be able to do in younger years - stay up late and then try to function the next day!  Wow - what a revelation to me.  I really know that I have this issue and really have to work on it.
  James 3:6-10  in the Kings James version states, "And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity: so is the tongue among our members, that it defileth the whole body, and setteth on fire the course of nature;  and it is set on fire of hell.  For every kind of beasts, and birds, and of serpents, and of things in the sea, is tamed and hath been tamed of mankind:  But the tongue can no man tame;  it is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.  Therewith bless we God, even Father; and therewith curse we men, which are made after the similtude of God.  Out of the same mouth proceedeth blessing and cursing.  My brethren, things ought not so to be."  The rest of the chapter in verses 13 - 18 talk about God's wisdom!  Not man's wisdom!  Verse 17 states, "But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and easy to be entreated, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy."
  After reading this, one could get a little depressed about the fact that control over oneself is almost impossible.  I think that what I am gathering from this section of scripture is to keep on striving for that wisdom and peace that come from God.  I know that I am not going to ever be perfect, but I know that I can keep on trying to live my life so that those "good fruits" will appear.
  I wanted to share this post because I battle daily with anger, selfishness, and my mouth.  I am thankful that the Lord has given us His Word.  I am thankful that I don't have to keep my Stinkin', Rotten Attitude!  I daily give it to Him, and He forgives me.  Now that doesn't give me license to go out and willfully do wrong!  By no means!  It just means that I have an accountability partner in the Lord.  We all are going to continue to mess up -- we have to own up to this!  We have to begin to take responsibility and strive to do better with the Lord's help.
  So the next time that I am running late, I want to remember this really bad way that I handled this time and try to do better.  I am not ever going to be perfect here, but I am not going to let that be an excuse.  I pray that all of us that are saved by His grace will strive toward the goal - Hebrews 12:1-2  "Wherefore, seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith;  who for joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God."  I have to say that I have a lot of tears now, especially after these last two verses!
  This post kind of took on a different direction than I had intended.  As I typed the verses, I felt the Lord really speaking to me.  What a privilege it is to know Jesus and have to the Holy Spirit convict me and to have the arms of the Heavenly Father holding me!!  Oh wow!  
  I am ending this, like I have with the other posts, with a song by Damaris Carbaugh.  I hope that it blesses your heart as you listen!  He Has Forgiven Me - Damaris Carbaugh - YouTube

Love, {{hugs}}, and Blessings!