If you have ever had that experience, and if you haven't you will - take heart. I just texted a friend about what I did. Man is confession good for the soul but makes you cry :0) Anyway, she said the sweetest thing -- there is grace and you can always start over! AMEN and praise the Lord.
I think that my problem is that I let my negative thoughts toward myself get the better of me. I allow that area of my brain take over and don't think loving thoughts toward myself. Let me be brutally honest - I have a pity party for one! There, I said it! It is true. I feel sorry for myself.
Today, however, I looked up online about online Bible studies - I am home alot and really miss Bible study time with other believers. So, I looked up Liz Curtis Higgs - An Encourager® website. It just hit my square in the face. I not only was not being nice to my little kiddos, but I wasn't being nice to myself. I just have to, as my mom says, "Get a grip tater chip!"
From there I went to post this on facebook. I went on and got it posted. Then, as I am sure everyone does, I started to look at other people's statuses. I read about someone celebrating 49 years of marriage -- AWESOME! Then I looked where a friend, who had just been in the hospital for several months, was sharing her struggle with an area of recovery. It made me think how I wallow in my little bit of frustration and hard times, and yet here was someone who was really having it hard. It made me ashamed of myself.
As I thought about my being unkind to my children and myself, I immediately felt saddened. As I thought about what I had read and shared, a song and verse came to my mind!