Friday, January 23, 2015

This is an old post that I started some time ago, but I believe LIFE interrupted me, and therefore, I was unable to finish.  Seth is asleep!  I shout a quiet "Yahoo!" to myself :0) So, I am now finishing this since I have the opportunity!!!   

  I was in Powdersville today with Sully for his therapy.  It was a trip like any other.  I stepped in to talk to his wonderful group of therapists - he has been with these therapists since he was 6 months old!  And they are AWESOME!!!!!
  In any case I mentioned that I had been working with getting some of our clothes out of storage for the cooler weather.  I get stopped up when I am around dust and mold - I think I talk more about my allergies and stress with children in this blog than anything else  :0)  Anyway, I mentioned to them that I have what I like to call the "Nasal Voice" from my allergies.  I laughed and said that I wish I had what I call the "Sexy, Raspy Voice!"  That is what I get when I have a throat issue - kinda silly, I know, but I think it is fun to have a sexy, raspy voice than that old, nasal voice!
  That whole thing got me to thinking about myself and my inner and outer appearance.  I am happily married some 16 1/2 years to my sweetheart - I like to call him Mr. Benson! (If you are an "Emma" or anything Jane Austen fan, you can relate!) Anyway, in the beginning of our relationship, we were in our early 20's.  I was cute and in the best shape of my life!  We were active and spent alot of time hiking and fishing. We were definitely attracted to each other's outer appearances.  I was totally head over heels over Benson!  He was, shall I say, tall, dark, and handsome :0)  He loved me, and he told me he loved my blue eyes and blond hair.
  I am now in my early 40's.  I am no longer in the best shape of my life.  My shape is one of a recovering c-section, momma of 5 babies!  Actually, 5 earthly babies and 3 heavenly babies - that is another story, so I won't go there tonight!  With the stress of a child who was in the NICU for 5 weeks, taking care of him, and then having another child only 22 months after that experience, well, I have not been exactly putting my health at the top of the list.  I have been reading articles that state that caregivers must take care of themselves first.  I want to, but I haven't made that big first step.
  When a person gets too caught up in the outward appearance but takes no care of the inward stuff that makes up our character, it ends up not being very pretty! Thinking on this makes me want to get back into it!  The "It" is my exercise, diet and devotion time.  Back in 2011 I came across this workout called "Body Gospel."  This is a link if you want to see a bit of it https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gePXTqejuLU. Anyway, I dug my video set back out and decided to get back into it.  I have tried to watch my eating a bit more, too.  This is a site - http://www.myfitnesspal.com/ - that I have found to be a blessing!  You don't have to pay anything for it.  It is similar to weight watchers with the putting in your foods, water consumption, and exercise.  I think what is motivating me with this food diary is that it "gives" you back calories when you exercise.  I really want to do this and get control with His help.
  Lastly, in my spirit and walk with the Lord, I have to say that it is better now than any other time in my life.  I am making a point to read the Word and focus on Him.  I really do this, too!  I really pray all throughout the day.  I mean it sincerely when someone is having a meltdown and I cry out, "Dear Lord Jesus, help me get through this day!" (And I picture you reading this and laughing, but it is SO true!!).  And you know what? He does every time.  I think that in my quiet time - which face it is scattered throughout the day - I reconnect with Him.  My mother in law has raised 6 children all the while teaching and caring for other people's children.  I have one of her Bibles, and I see where she has been interrupted in her reading.  I love that she gets right back into it and finishes up!  
  I guess what I am trying to say in all of my paragraphs is this -- don't give up!  It is alright to start over.  Even if you have to every day!  Keep a positive outlook and know that the Lord is really holding you and is your biggest fan.  Our goal should not be to be whatever the world's view is of beautiful!  Our goal should be to glorify the Lord!  I am planning to do that with my mind, body, spirit and emotions!  I am excited to see what is going to happen over the next few months -- Pray for me as I will pray for you! The Lord loves us so much and for that I am truly grateful!

Here is a song for you today!  Pray For Me - Michael W. Smith - YouTube

{{HUGS}} and Blessings to you!

:0)Chandra

2 comments:

  1. Summer - Thank you SO much! I can use all the prayers!!! Life is challenging, so I am thankful for the prayers! Blessings :0)

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